Well here we are at day four of my California seclusion. I am settling in much better. I am feeling better and am starting to get a clearer head. I am going to go see my family for a while spend some time in the comfort of them and talk to my Aunt and Cousin. My Aunt lost her husband two years ago and my cousin acted impulsively jumping into a marriage a few months afterwards. I feel that I have acted impulsively myself but not in an un-salvageable way. I need their experience and strength to straighten my thoughts and find away to be more open with my father about how I'm doing with things. But I am confident that this trip, this little vacation from my rapidly forward moving life is just what I need to keep putting one foot in front of another. I am unsure about the future of my life and my relationship. I believe that my boyfriend and I have some issues, issues that are going to be a fight for him to address but while I feel we may have moved way too quickly of me and gotten into something I'm not quite ready for I believe that we can take it easy from here on out and keep our heads above water and learn to swim together. Now the only place I'm stuck at is leaving on my little vacay. I would like to leave on Tuesday because my boyfriends birthday is Monday, however his mother is having the whole family, myself included, out to dinner for his birthday on Friday. So do I postpone or do I head out? I don't want to hurt his mom's feelings or cause damage to my situation with his family by leaving right before a dinner that's been planned for weeks. So if anyone is out there....what do you think? Take a shorter vacay and stay for celebratory birthday dinner? Or head out Tuesday for two and a half weeks of family comfort and fun?
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