I'm not gonna say that I don't change for people around me, it's always been a problem, but I've always been able to stay true the the core of myself. It has taken a long time and a lot of work but I like knowing that I am myself no matter what and no matter who. My boyfriend and I had a discussion the other day and in some manner we got around to here:
me: "You say that like you're a different person all together when you're not with someone?"
Him: "I am."
Me: "And you think that's ok?"
Him: shrugs
Which begs the question: If you changes totally into a different person when you get into a relationship doesn't that make it not work? Doesn't that mean that the person that you're with gets to know one you, chooses to get in a relationship with you, and then finds themselves in a relationship with someone else?
I've known my BF for 12 years. He was a sweet, caring, affectionate, easy going, loving, compassionate person. And that is what I loved about him. I'm wondering where he went. Now he's secretive, distant, has no compassion, or understanding, he doesn't talk about things with me. I used to talk to him about everything when we were friends. When I was having trouble with my relationship I would come to him and he and I were always on the same page about things, about openness, about morals, about what's proper and ok and whats not. And now I don't see that person anymore, currently I see my last ex at the end. Keeping secrets, not telling me who people are, hiding things, I feel it in my gut that what's happening now is exactly what happened between me an my ex right before he cheated.
I'm so confused and upset I want the man that I've known all this time back 
me: "You say that like you're a different person all together when you're not with someone?"
Him: "I am."
Me: "And you think that's ok?"
Him: shrugs
Which begs the question: If you changes totally into a different person when you get into a relationship doesn't that make it not work? Doesn't that mean that the person that you're with gets to know one you, chooses to get in a relationship with you, and then finds themselves in a relationship with someone else?
I've known my BF for 12 years. He was a sweet, caring, affectionate, easy going, loving, compassionate person. And that is what I loved about him. I'm wondering where he went. Now he's secretive, distant, has no compassion, or understanding, he doesn't talk about things with me. I used to talk to him about everything when we were friends. When I was having trouble with my relationship I would come to him and he and I were always on the same page about things, about openness, about morals, about what's proper and ok and whats not. And now I don't see that person anymore, currently I see my last ex at the end. Keeping secrets, not telling me who people are, hiding things, I feel it in my gut that what's happening now is exactly what happened between me an my ex right before he cheated.
I'm so confused and upset I want the man that I've known all this time back 
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